Henrih - tomorrow makes the 4th month without you, I was counting, 121 days of feeling sooooo blue I miss you more than words can possibly express This excruciating, indescribable heartache is turning me into such a mess!
Remember, you were the doctor and supposed to take care of us?! How will you do that from above, do you care to discuss?
PLEEEEEEEAAAAAASEEEEE, COME BACK and let's have a chat I'D STOP BREATHING RIGHT NOW JUST TO HAVE THAT!!!!!!!!! Your voice I miss, and your laughter, and your blue eyes It's not just us who miss you; there are lots of other guys Because to so many, your admirable traits were such a great inspiration, And such, will forever remain your reputation.
Four months without you is on this December 15, 4 million X infinity is the number of my tears in the days between It seems like these tears will never stop flowing Because the pain of your absence forever keeps growing.
They say you'll learn to live with this kind of pain I'll take any pain, only YOU back to obtain!!!!!! Oh, how I pray for a miracle to occur, And for that to happen the whole world I would stir!!!
I need to know that you're okay So I can live another day PLEASE, Henrih, tell me what should I do? Christmas is coming, and I have no clue of what to do without you I've gotten good at feeling blue, but you wouldn't want that to be true So tell me, tell me, how can I get through this unbearable pain? I know, you'll say, "You have Julian; he should keep you sane!" Yes!!!! That's true! Thank god for him!!!!! Jules is indeed MY ONLY JOY!!!! And he should be the reason that every moment I should enjoy!!!
4 months without you!!!! 121 days not hearing your voice!!! Life throws such things at you, and you have no choice But to continue living… in pain, in agony, only to suffer with nothing right now to help this pain to buffer.
So, here I sit, writing poems to you every hour wondering what the heck did we just do? You did not deserve this, neither did we!! How could this be???? WHY COULD THIS BE??????!!!!!!!!