Henrih, as we sit here, missing you, wishing that you're here, wishing to hear your loud, booming voice, wishing to give you that big bear hug you always gave us, we feel as if you are here amongst us. Jules is having his dinner, dad is sitting here with me and Jules, and we have your picture facing us. However, we FEEL your presence here.
Why did it have to be like this? A parent is NEVER supposed to go through this excruciating pain of seeing his/her child go before them?!!!! Can you even begin to imagine what we're going through right now? Can you imagine how lonely Jules feels? Can you imagine how difficult it is for me to breathe? Can you imagine what your strong dad is going through every moment of every day? He is trying to appear strong for us. Well, you know how "weak" I am, so dad and Jules are trying to make me feel better. But how do they do it? By hiding their own feelings. I want them to cry with me, to scream with me, to break with me, but here they are, being positive, remembering your loud laughter, remembering your jokes, and reminiscing about the many memories we have made a s a family.
Well, tonight, I just want to write about the time when you were having your dinner with Jules, sitting in the kitchen island. I was standing in front of my two handsome boys, admiring them as they eat. We always had a talk like this every night. Nana would be sleeping upstairs, but the three of us would have our talks as you two ate dinner. After all, these were the precious moments a momma has with her sons. Anyways, Henrih, you knew how I always LOOOOOOOVE a British accent, and in the midst of our normal conversation, after a brief moment of pause, when neither of us were saying anything, out of nowhere, you went like, "'Ello' Gov'nor". Oh, how we all started laughing, and we couldn't stop (you and Jules are SOOOOO TALENTED; well, at least we think so). Well, from that day on, "Ello' Gov'nor" is going to be synonymous with my boys and with that memory.
Hen, YOUR heart may have stopped beating, but as long as MINE, DAD's, and JULIAN"s hearts are beating, yours will be too. We will breathe for you, live for you, be happy for you, and we will ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU AS WE HAVE YOU IN OUR HEARTS.
WE ARE HEARTS FOR HENRIH!!!!!
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